Just been pondering on some stuff from the past and utilizing it to fan the flame within me to press forward in this awesome journey. Sometimes i have so alone and without one to hear my thoughts and words( a certain evil being would like for me to believe the lie that i am alone and unworthy)…but i have been reminded in the past and in recent days/weeks that i will always have One to listen…my Lord.
If you feel discouraged about your value to others or God, say this truth out loud, i seriously feel this is what Jesus feels about us!
“I am valuable to God…so much so, i am worth Jesus to God! Totally accepting and believing this value releases me from hypocrisy, need for monetary gain or lust for things of this world, unnecessary fear or oppression of worry/doubt. I can shamelessly proclaim He is mine and i am His!” ~Kristina Alford

When i am blessed in any particular way whether in times of much or little…i think of a chunky little sparrow that tends to hang out on a huge tree i can see from my front window!!! This bird is WELL taken care of for sure…the first time i gazed out the window and saw the sweet thing was right after my husband had been in the hospital unexpectedly…he had been laid off due to downsizing in November…it was now January. A lot of stress and a cold w/nagging cough of all things initiated the visit to the Doc. in the first five minutes of the visit we learned that 286/190 blood pressure was not a good thing at all! Though it was freezing cold work between Nov. and Jan. he had been blessed with temporary/part time construction to have a little something coming in. Almost all of our missions support had either been stopped or cut back due to ministry partners families/individuals either losing jobs as well or the economy in general— minimal income to say the least. We thankfully had brains and courage to have a cushion saved up (not much, but enough to pay rent and basic utilites for a couple of months–what a blessing!)Of course that ran out fast in the grand picture of things, but we were so thankful for that provision!
Anyway, this little bird was so in my face-just perched there kind of staring down into our living room-almost smiling it seemed with sheer content, a definite reminder that we, God’s children are so much more valuable to Him than the birds! (Luke 12)
Friends have recently asked about our struggles and if we need anything. I sometimes don’t know how to respond, because to survive and give Him my total TRUST, i have had to learn to only deal with today, the here and now as far as our needs go, and usually when someone asks, our needs for that day aren’t needs anymore. One day recently, rent was due, utilities along with some personal needs coming up. It was at a point when Chris had interviewed–he had been told he had a job, but wouldn’t be starting for a couple of days and furthermore wouldn’t receive a full pay check for three/four weeks!
“Aggh!” I thought at first. I quickly remembered, “take hold of that crazy doubtful thought, especially after all God had just promised us this week.” So, took a deep breath or two…maybe three deep breaths and a few tears and shared it w/God—then Chris received a phone call with someone who said something along the lines that he and his family felt led to swing by and drop off something for us and wanted to let us know to be looking for it…Sure enough, a check for a couple of hundred dollars awaited us! The humbling part is we know this particular family acted upon a prompting from Jesus, probably taking away from their own family budget to give to ours, more than likely, making things pretty tight for them I’m almost for sure.
We knew that this family and God loved us before the gift was given, so by all means i pray folks don’t think that we know our value by the $ friends give us. It was the act of obedience and the determination of that family to love and go beyond themselves, beyond maybe a few wants that they had to bless someone else. This was the blessing.
I have said, “thank you”-and wish i could give something in return, but i know in Heaven they will surely be able to feel our gratitude in whole, complete. I don’t grasp how nor do i understand why God does it this way, He just does. This is what reminds me of our value to God! All i know is almost my whole life journey with Him has been this way.
Why do we keep serving even when it isn’t easy?
There is freedom…this friend who serves us with His complete love- this friend, God and God through His Son, Jesus is who keeps us going. He is the reason Chris, Connor, Cayden and I keep pressing forward. He is why we not only serve friends/family, but why we love serving our community as a whole.
He says “Be ready for service, keep your lamps burning…” (Luke 12:35)
We are imperfect servants for sure, but we love and serve the One who is perfect…please keep lifting one another up as you are led to. A smile, a hug, an umbrella for a stranger caught in a rain storm needing to put groceries in their car, a neighbor needing their lawn cared for, help someone move or organize their stuff, be a listening ear when someone needs a tangible person to sit on the phone or in person for hours, make a meal for a family with a new baby, visit a nursing home, babysit for a friend who needs a date night…remember freedom given in Him and then serve in some way-not to repay Him (we could never fully repay Him anyway), but to show others He is capable and desires to do the same for them as He has done for you.
So for those who are asking, Yes, things are rough, but there is joy, there is freedom.
We need to be watching and waiting for Jesus, I am reminded to fan the flame within me. This is work, but it is good.
Enjoy His freedom!