~three words~

Will you forgive me?

Okay, so that’s four words.  I originally started to type the words- I am sorry.  But while typing I feel that”i am sorry” just isn’t enough…

I/we need to realize when we have done something wrong-be accountable by realizing we are a sad, sorry bunch sometimes! Upon realizing we are sorry, we should feel remorse-sincere remorse, then ask for forgiveness-declare we feel we have wronged another and just say, “I’m sorry that i said or behaved, assumed”… or whatever fits the specific situation…

Why is this so difficult for our human race?

Is it pride? Laziness? Do people really feel they are never to blame that it is always someone else to blame? Seems we accept the lie that the enemy wishes us to take hook line and sinker-ya know the one that makes us think we can do no wrong, it’s always someone else’ fault…we will sacrifice all types of relationships even die for the issue of being the “right one” although in most of these cases both parties have messed up somewhere in the ordeal.

When i am selfish or hurting within…i hurt people-most times unknowingly-at other times w/shame i must confess i have purposely aimed a cross look or been right out mean before, especially when i was younger…thankfully the Holy Spirit has that awesome power to touch my soul and make me aware—VERY aware just how awful I can be (this is called conviction).  In those unknowing times that my words or frustration hurt another i am so grateful for those who will call or swing by and share the hurt i may have caused so we can work through it.

It appears each one of us have the potential to make a positive impact on society…but this lack of responsibility/accountability and humility renders it’s possessors ugly, unapproachable and ineffective for positivity. Again, i ask, why is this so difficult? The Bible says to pray for our enemies, right?  Okay with that in mind, i have never thought of myself having enemies…even when i have been hurt or upset with someone, no…never felt they were my enemy, but what defines an enemy?  Maybe it is self that is our worst enemy…This would lead me to believe we must pray more to keep our self in check-to discipline our lives more and realize it isn’t about us all the time—Rather life may just be about others, most importantly about what our Creator desires for us and others.

I guess the question of my heart is, are you or i ugly, unapproachable, negative and ineffective by choice? Who do we need to approach with an, “I am sorry”, or a “Will you forgive me?“  Maybe we need to just forgive someone whether or not they ask us to forgive them…

Would it be safe to say we all need to ask the questions— Who do i need to forgive and/or who do i need to ask to forgive me?

I guess it’s time to “Live well, live wisely, live humbly” and not just keep talking about in this post…(James 3)

Over the past 9 mos. or so, i have grown distant w/ many friends and acquaintances, why? I don’t really know, other than some crazy life stuff just came our way and i feel derailed so to speak…I am realizing i have laid back on enjoying friendships while focusing on taking time to just be with Chris and the boys when there was extra time…I also realize this hasn’t been so very healthy for keeping friendships in tact and well for this i am sorry, please forgive me…